My Birthday Goal

Every single January for the last 10 years I have set a goal to reach by my birthday which is June 15th. I always think that because I have half the year to get to the goal that I should be able to achieve it. Every year it is exactly the same goal. For 10 years I have failed every single time. I gave up for so many reasons: it was too hard, I can't really reach it because I am not supposed to, I get comfortable where I am at, I don't want to put the work into reaching it. You name it and I used it as an excuse. You would think that eventually I would quit setting the goal, but not me! Every year it was the same thing. And every year I would be frustrated that I could not commit enough to myself to achieve this one "simple" thing.

My goal each and every year is to reach the 140s by my birthday. Sounds easy enough, right? At the beginning of each year I would weigh anywhere between 170-195 and I figured that I could lose that much by my birthday, if I really put my mind to it. The only problem was that I never really fully could put my mind to it. I have tried so many diets, so many programs. Some worked and some didn't. I found that I loved running, but never really stuck to it for a long enough period of time. I couldn't stick to a workout program for longer than 2 weeks. I was fed up with myself, with my own lack of self-control.

This year has been different. I set my goal once again. I was around 180 pounds at the beginning of January. I gave up gluten again (yes, I have a gluten intolerance) which had been an easy way to drop weight in the past. I lost about 5 pounds and then nothing. I went back and forth with it, but I felt so much better when I was off of gluten that eventually I stuck with it. I started running and I started the 30 Day Shred by Jillian Michaels. I received a Body Media Fit for Christmas and started tracking everything. Nothing. I was around 170-175 and nothing I did could get me under that. I did a USANA Reset again, which I have had success with in the past. Again nothing changed. People were commenting that I looked great, that I was fading away but I didn't see it because the scale wasn't changing. I was frustrated beyond belief, but this time I DID NOT GIVE UP!

I was on Facebook one day in February and there was a suggested post about a program called the 21 Day Fix. I thought it was a scam so I ignored it. A few days later it was there again, so I left a comment for Colin and he responded with a Facebook message. He asked me all these questions about myself, how much time I had to workout, what I had tried before, and tried to find out if the program would work for me. I loved the idea of it, but when it came down to it, I couldn't afford it. So I told him I had to wait. I put him off for a couple months. Then in April he posted that he was looking for coaches and that he could only take on 4 new coaches to mentor. I was intrigued. I want to help people. I want to show people how to eat healthy, how to BE healthy. How can I do this when I am not there myself? So I messaged him and said I was interested and was now ready to start the program. I have never been so excited and passionate about a decision. I know it was the right choice for me.

Since then I have now completed 2 rounds of the 21 Day Fix. My weigh in after 6 weeks of commitment:

Have I reached my goal of the 140s by my birthday this year? Well, not quite. Am I frustrated by that? HELL NO!!!! I am so excited that I have come this far! I can't wait to continue on and reach my goal within the next couple weeks as I commit to a third round of the 21 Day Fix. I am excited to see how I change as I start the newest program PiYo on July 7th. I am so glad that I didn't give up on myself this time. I deserve to be happy. I deserve to be healthy. And today I am definitely both of those. So Happy Birthday to me! I am finally becoming the person I am supposed to be!