A New Challenge

I can't believe how quickly time goes by! I have been so busy lately that blogging always falls to the bottom of my list of things to do. I am hoping to change that this week! I need to make my writing more of a priority.

I finished up two rounds of the 21 Day Fix and lost almost 20 pounds in those 42 days! I am so proud of myself for how far I have come! I did officially make it into the 140s only a week and a half after my birthday. I still can't believe it some days! I am about 146 pounds currently and I don't always feel that way. Most of the time I still see me at 178 pounds in the mirror. Or in my clothes. I can see the physical changes in my body, but I can also still see the "big" me. I had heard of this happening to other people that have lost weight, but I didn't really understand it until now. Still being about 30 pounds away from my final goal, I am curious to see what it's like once I reach it. I am actually nervous about reaching this goal.

I haven't been in this good of shape ever in my life. I am feeling amazing and I look forward to reaching my goal. Yet at the same time it scares the crap out of me. I think it is funny that the biggest reason I have never met my goal is because if I get too close I get scared. Here's a big moment of honesty: I don't think I have ever really finished anything in my entire life. Other than high school! I get close to reaching what I want and then I let it go before I can achieve it. I am not sure if I am scared of success or what, but I sabotage myself every. single. time. So what makes me so sure that I will succeed this time?

I have the right support. Now I'm not saying I didn't have support in the past. I always have. This time it is the right support. It's my own along with everyone else. For the first time I really believe in myself. I deserve it, and I believe that I deserve it. If you don't believe in it for yourself then you probably won't achieve whatever it is you are striving for. Each and every time I went into "weight loss mode" I believed that I would fail. So I did. This time I believe with every fiber of my being that I will succeed. So I will! I already have! I am not even at my goal weight yet but I am healthier, stronger, and fitter than I have ever been.

All this being said, I have embarked on a new challenge:

 My PiYo program arrived 3 weeks ago and I started it immediately! It is a 60 day program that combines Pilates and Yoga in a fast paced workout. And I LOVE IT! I look forward to working out every day. My running is improving and I FEEL absolutely amazing! This program is going to get me to my goal. I was worried that a 60 day challenge might be too much for me, but once again I believe that I can do it this time. So I know I will. I have the right people around me supporting me along the way. I have the determination to get it done. And I can't WAIT to see my results at the end of 60 days.

I have other goals that I have set for myself. I even created a Vision Board that is now the background on my computer to remind me every day what I am working toward. Each day I write out a list of things for me to do so that I can take baby steps every single day toward achieving them. I will not give up this time! I will succeed, because now I KNOW I CAN!