Energy

Last week I was putting all of my energy in the wrong direction. I was still eating right and working out every day, so that kind of energy was on the right track. I am referring to my mental energy.

I was so focused on all the "stuff" I need to get done in order to be where I want to be rather than on just putting energy into doing the stuff that needed to be done. I became overwhelmed and felt defeated before I even tried! My dream is to create a team of people that are passionate about helping people achieve their health and fitness goals. I want to be able to make a difference. There are so many things I feel like I need to be doing, but the sheer volume of things I can be doing becomes suffocating. So rather than stepping back and prioritizing what I should do first I became upset that I couldn't do it all.

On top of that, finances are always difficult. I find that whenever I take a couple steps forward in becoming debt free that I end up taking three steps backwards. There is always something that comes up that makes me feel as though I will never get ahead. I began to feel defeated in this area as well.

All the negative energy I was feeding myself started to show up in how I felt during the day. I was exhausted, physically and mentally. I felt that I couldn't really achieve what I wanted in life, but I was still willing to try. Only it was more half-hearted at that point. I wouldn't say I felt depressed, just afraid that this is going to be the way things are for the rest of my life. I don't want to feel defeated anymore. I know that I can lead an awesome team of people. And I know that I can be successful if I put my mind to it. I just have to change the energy I feed myself.

I have been getting up earlier in the morning to get some reading done. I read a few chapters in my Bible (looking for good devotional recommendations please!!) and I am currently reading "not a fan" by Kyle Idleman which has been very thought provoking and causing a bit (ok so a lot) of soul searching! This has been helping me over the past couple of days. I know that I need to let go and let God, but that can be very hard for me sometimes! Really allowing myself to focus on Him and His plans for me in the morning gives me a great start to my day. My thoughts are positive going into the rest of my day.

The way think has a very profound effect on your life. The thoughts you think about yourself shape who you are. The thoughts about your life shape what your life will be. Whether this is negative or positive. This doesn't mean that if you think positive things about your life that it will rainbows and unicorns and that you will suddenly be a millionaire. What it means is that your perspective changes, and where you once saw famine you can now see feast. I know that I much prefer to see the positive side of my life than the negative. It has a much brighter future!